Spiritual Awakening: The Strange Way Four Miscarriages Taught Me Faith
I became a doctor to ease another’s suffering. Yet, somewhere in the long haul of schooling, I squeezed my own soul — my heart’s calling — right out of the picture.
I lost my way the moment I stopped leading life with my heart.
Living in your head all the time can feel quite dark and scary. 😮💨
It took loss to show me how to let my heart lead again.
Four miscarriages in four years.
The last one — a second-trimester loss — hit my personal growth acceleration pedal in a way nothing else ever had.
Loss somehow feels like failure, weighing you down, keeping you further from your dreams.
The sorrow became too much for me to carry alone. I had to elevate myself above the dark cloud I was standing under. I had to find a higher meaning for my deep heartache.
So I did what any exhausted, curious, slightly desperate woman does when she runs out of options in her head. I followed my heart again.
With a quiet enough mind, I asked Source a lot of questions 🙋♀️ — and listened for the answers. 🫣
One divine answer broke me out of my mental anguish:
Conception is a miracle.
Instantly, my view changed. To God’s perspective. Love’s view. 🕊️
I am conceiving. I am co-creating life. I am mothering these little ones — these little angels.
Strangely, with appreciation, I felt closer to my dream, not further away.
Even though I wasn’t yet holding our baby in my arms and carrying a baby in my belly didn’t feel enough — I stopped counting what wasn’t working and started noticing what is.
Instead of resisting loss, I accepted it — honored what it’s teaching me — and rested in knowing God’s got a greater plan.
This too is faith. Having the courage to consistently believe life is beautifully unfolding for you, despite it looking otherwise. 💩
Loss revealed what I’d been too busy to see — Love’s presence. 👀 💝
✦ 3 Powerful Shifts to Unlock Your Healing Journey
Looking back, I can now name three shifts that moved me from the stress of living in my head to the peace of leading with my heart again.
These are the shifts I lead women through:
01. ✧ AWAKE
See What’s Really Running the Show
You can’t change what you can’t see.
Awake is the moment you see you’re not broken, you’re patterned. 👀
The exhaustion, the disconnection, the way you've been showing up (or hiding) — it's all a pattern.
You know these patterns:
😤 Fight.
Sharp. Defensive.
You snap and apologize an hour later.
😵💫 Flight.
Busy. Distracted.
You stay in motion so you don’t have to feel.
😶🌫️ Freeze.
Numb. Foggy.
You can’t make a decision to save your life.
🥺 Fawn.
People-pleasing. Over-giving.
You disappear into what they need.
These aren’t flaws. They’re the ways you learned to survive when life felt too big to feel. The old survival strategy that protected you once is now quietly costing (and exhausting) you.
You can't unknow what you've seen. Seeing the pattern is where peace begins — the first step back to you, your heart, love. 💗
02. ✧ ALIGN
Make Peace With Every Part of You
Once you see the pattern, the first instinct is to fight it. To bully yourself into being different, or add “heal the pattern” to your to-do list.
Resisting doesn’t work.
What you resist persists. What you accept rests.
Align is the practice of making peace with every part of yourself 🕊️ — especially the one still running the old program: Don’t slow down. Keep everyone happy. Don’t be a burden. Get it right.
She kept you safe. She got you through the long haul — the training, the marriage, the years you didn’t think you’d survive. She had a job, and she did it well.
Now, appreciate her and let her know the job has changed.
When she feels understood — she rests, the protective pattern releases — and you stop fighting yourself.
Making peace with every part of you is where wholeness begins — and healing feels fun. 🌈 🤸🏿♀️
03. ✧ ACTIVATE
Let Love Lead Your Life
In wholeness, accepting every part of you, you can respond peacefully rather than react stressfully.
Activate is when your inner peace ripples to your outer life.
The old stressful moments look different when love shows up.
You know these patterns too:
😌 Soft, instead of steamed.
You open up rather than armor up.
🥰 Present, instead of scattered.
You let yourself feel what’s actually happening.
🙂 Grounded, instead of confused.
You trust what you know and speak from it.
🫶 Honest, instead of hiding behind yesses.
You stay yourself, even when they want something else.
Love leads your life from the inside out. 💞
✦ Spiritual Healing: Be a Ripple of Love
I know these three shifts. I teach these three shifts. And still — my head hijacks my peace, my faith wavers, and I wonder if the next thing I’m praying for will ever actually be delivered. Almost daily, if I’m being honest. (Sigh) I’m human. 😩
And yet, today, when I look at our three grown daughters (once a prayer) — one is graduating from college and launching into the world, with a job to boot 🎉 — they teach me without ever saying a word.
Mom. Keep going. I was once a prayer too. 🥹
The prayer became a person. The person became a messenger. They are walking, talking proof that what I can't see coming yet is clearly already on its way — in its own time, in its own form.
So…
Keep the faith. Keep seeing what’s really running the show. Keep making peace with every part of you. Keep letting love lead your life. That’s the whole practice. That’s the whole spiritual healing journey — coming home to the version of you that’s been there the whole time:
Love.
The most powerful medicine you have.
The medicine you already are. 🌊 💞
xo,
Dr. Sue
P.S. If you want to actually practice these shifts (not just read about them), join me live: Feeling Behind? 3 Simple Shifts to Reclaim Your Peace. 💛
